Sometimes you’re the bug & sometimes you’re the windshield.
I’ve read this quote before. But lately I’ve been trying to stop attributing quotes.
It’s been a tough few weeks for me. I’m not getting the traction I’d like with writing. Same with photography. My compact camera hasn’t seen any serious action in the last two weeks.
I’m used to this type of rollercoaster. We all have good days. Bad days. And then the days where nothing seems to be working. Your alarm clock fails you. A flat tire on your car or bicycle. The one person at work who knows what ticks you off – and today they bring their A-game.
Each time I get into this type of funk I think to myself “How can I be better prepared for the next time this happens?“
And it’s part of the problem.
I read a book around depression remedies1 and one thing they suggested was to enjoy the fall. Know it will happen again. Know it is often a losing battle to try and get yourself out of the funk. Sometimes just take one step or do one thing to keep yourself going.
I don’t really enjoy writing about my battles with the black dog. Comparatively speaking my life isn’t bad. It’s tough but I know people who have it worse. So I tend to keep quiet when I shouldn’t. And I tend to make jokes when I shouldn’t. This creates a nice little feedback loop of negativity.
I’m writing this purely to get it out of my system. Because this mental block usually stops me from writing which makes me more depressed. And after writing and getting it off my chest I feel much better. My mind is empty and new ideas can take shape again.
Thanks for reading : )
Notes.
1. If you’re suffering from depression, and have been going in the to-and-fro for a while you’ll know a cure isn’t something which is possible. You learn to live with it. IMHO.